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Confession of a jobless girl

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Satu bulan yang lalu gw sidang final di kampus .... sidangnya cuma 40 menit sih ... cuma derita sebelum sidangnya itu enam bulan mati matian. Kuliah gw itu menurut gw susahnya amit amit banget .... dulu pas kuliah di Indonesia juga susah sih...... tapi ya bisa aja gitu dapet nilai bagus. Kalo disini aih matek susahnya mau dapet nilai A...... kuliahnya 100% bahasa Jerman dan satu jurusan orang Indonesia nya cuma gw doang .... hiks, kadang tuh gw suka iri gitu sama student dari Cina atau dari Korea Selatan karena mereka banyak temen temen senegaranya. Yahh akhirnya gw lulus bulan lalu tanggal 23 Oktober ..... ijazah masih belum ditangan nih baru dibagiin tanggal 4 Desember ... enak juga disini ga ada acara wisuda.... males gw wisuda2an segala mending dirumah nonton tipi ngelamar lamar kerja. Hari itu mas pacar gw minta ambil off dari kantor buat bantuin gw sidang ..... bukannya lebay tapi gambar gw ada 9 ... ukuran kertasnya A0 ... semuanya harus ditempel rapi di dinding presentasi dalam waktu yang singkat .... plus maket gw ada 3 .... yang 2 ukurannya mayan lah hampir A2. Abis beres presentasi kita buka Champagne yang dibawa mas pacar.... hadiah dari dia ceritanya...


 ga sengaja keminum 3 gelas kekekeke


lanjut makan siang di restoran depan kampus .... selama kuliah gw gapernah kesana soalnya keliatannya mahal bgt... tapi karena gw lulus boleh dong ntraktir pacar makan siang ..... ternyata makanannya enak dan harganya ga segitunya nyekek leher kok ..... lagian mahal dikit juga gpp lah gw emang udah miskin juga kok gara gara tugas akhir yang mahalnya matek hahahaha ...


Minggu pertama setelah jadi pengangguran.... gw masih sibuk ke kampus beberapa kali .... pindahin laptop, monitor, printer, etc dari kampus ke rumah .... trus sibuk santai santai aja bangun tidur nonton tipi heheheh. Cuma gw itu emang gak bisa banget disuruh bengong kelamaan ..... akhirnya setelah 4-5 hari gw mati gaya. Abis itu gw apply apply kerjaan buat part time job .... sebenernya mau nyari kerja kantoran, tapi ga bisa secepet itu apply nya soalnya perlu nyiapin portfolio dulu ..... berhubung rekening bank udah makin langsing.... gw gerak cepat cari part time job...


musimnya daun2 gugur. cakep yaa...


minggu kedua gw jadi pengangguran ....dipanggil buat test kerja jadi waitress di restoran Sushi. Lancar jaya walopun gw belum pernah kerja di bidang gastronomy .... selang berapa hari kemudian gw tanda tangan kontrak kerja part time di restoran sushi ini .... lumayan, setiap kerja gw boleh makan sushi gratis kekekeke... dan uangnya juga lumayan untuk beli sepatu baru bayar kosan. Beruntung gw tinggal di kota besar .... mau cari kerja sampingan relatif gampang .... denger denger sih kalo di kota2 yang (dulunya) bekas Jerman Timur atau di Berlin susah buat anak muda cari kerja sampingan... karena saingannya sama para less educated + jobless people yang bersedia ngelakuin kerjaan yang sama as a full-time-job dan dengan hourly-wage yang lebih rendah.


pulang kerja nyolong bawa pulang sushi

Kalo lagi gak kerja di resto gw dirumah aja .... nyiapin portfolio yang cakep buat ngelamar kerjaan, sambil bikin list mau apply ke perusahaan mana aja, etc. Dua minggu lalu akhirnya gw resmi apply2 ke perusahaan arsitek yang gw suka (masih idealis ceritanya hahaha ... ) of course ada yang langsung nolak #nangisdipojokan Tiap hari kerjaan gw cuma ngecek email sama nunggu HP bunyi ada yang nelpon .... yang nolak udah ada beberapa .... yang bilang perlu waktu buat proses aplikasi gw ada dua.... yang belum jawab buanyaaaaakkkk #airmatakering

Setelah galau galau gajelas (yaelah baru aja nunggu 2 minggu nganggur.... lebay ya) Senin malem kemarin gw akhirnya gabisa tidur dan browsing2 lowongan kerja lagi. Nemu tiga perusahaan yang nyari orang .... akhirnya malam itu juga (jam 2 pagi) gw kirim aplikasi via email. Besoknya.... hari Selasa.... gw lagi kerja di Resto Sushi.... eh ditelpon, diundang buat wawancara hari Jumat, alias B-E-S-O-K!!! Ahhhhhhhh seneng tapi deg deg an tapi seneng tapi bingung gimana caranya mau pake court heel yang cakep kalo udaranya -1 derajat? Ada saran? Apakah pake koyo di kaki bisa membantu? Gw ada nih stok koyo cabe, masih banyak. Oiya setelah jadi ternak potong pengangguran gw jadi bisa sering masak dirumah.... seneng deh bisa makan enak sehat hemat lagi....


ini hasil gw berantakin dapur masak selama gw jadi pengangguran .... doakan pengangguran ini semoga cepat berlalu yaaaa .... kasian rekening bank gw kemarau gersang terus terusan.

Bird Song

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just a current very fave song...

calmly in love

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The stressful summer semester days is over ....... means I able to cook and eat proper meal or bake something every time I feels like baking. Picture above are another batch of choco muffin ..... flatmate said it was yummy but I'm still not 100% satisfied with the fluffiness, it's not fluffy enough ..... and my breakfast this morning ..... consuming apple again after 2 weeks break from apple .... last time I ate apple I chewed a worm :s Someone marvelously sweet is occupying a good-sized apartment in my brain ..... my ear-to-ear-smile obviously tells that I'm happy and feel safe to lean on his strong shoulder.

ps : summer, are you kidding us?

red and grey

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as the University workloads are getting crazier each day, I'm having more and more difficulties to differentiate between weekdays and weekend. It's feels the same! Yet I should say that I'm happy, very happy. Period.

the balance

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had birthday last Monday and spent the day get in touch with my family and friends (thanks to phone and internet) and of course unable to take a rest from assignment. The whole week is too perfect to describe, everything just went well and nice .... the important presentation .... the birthday rendezvous .... the talk with girlfriend until 4 am .... the afternoon in rustic balcony .... the fly inside my glass ... the mini music concert .... and the silent moments, feels like found the balance that's simply indescribable.

smoothie junkie

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photo via flickr

the strawberry season is around, I buy half kilogram strawberry thrice a week or so, and one banana, and mix delicious smoothie for breakfast every morning, hmmh so good! Wore my new nike ac high suede today, the pair that I've been dreaming of since couple months ago. This noon in the library someone told me a funny travel story in Kirkenes.

the real life 2010

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I don't know who's been visiting/reading my blog and hence been avoiding to write something personal. But 2010 is almost over, I'll say goodbye properly to 2010 with this .... a personal writing.

2010 has been rough. You may only seen pretty picture ... or random quirky scenes from my daily life, but actually life hasn't been as sweet as photographs. I'm a student, and yes .... school haunt my days endlessly. There are days when I'm bored with classes .... nervous with extremely important exams ... crying in the bathroom because I was devastated with German grammar. I pushed myself so hard to keep determined, sometimes I don't even know how to switch my mind off. I'm such a skanky perfectionist ..... I even tired of being perfectionist but can't change the way I am. Besides, I'm not allowed to fail. This study is so damn expensive .... and disappointing my parents never crossed in my mind.

After more than one year living in Stuttgart, I'm really a pro with managing daily household chores. If you meet me two years ago, back then I can't cook .... my cookings taste like plastic flip flop .... I shrinked my fave sweater in washing machine .... grocery shopping means went into Supermarket and took some chocolate bars home ... I have no structure at all! Now I should say I handle things neatly, and I'm happy with it.
Résumé. Household chores is a simple thing, just do it.

Personal life has been rough, to be honest. There are days when things are dark .... just very dark. Then came blurry days. Then came foggy days. Then came a bit sunshine followed by heavy storm. At the end the end of the day we're both a bit tired .... but we're still holding each others hand. We walk slowly now ..... and every once in a while the bad weather comes hit us.
Résumé. We both know for sure we just have to keep walking and have faith.

I should say 2010 means a lot to me, many life-changing things happened (even my clothes size's is also changed) To make 2010 more special, I met so many new friends ... and some of them are just nice. It took me around almost a year to finally dare to be more open and spend more time with the flatmates & co ... and we're a happy family now, they call me the sober little sister.


the last guilty pleasure 2010, a cos skirt (I'm still the same me)
I think cos designs are always genius

cupcakes and pizza

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School has been going on for one week and I have difficulty choosing classes, there's way too many interesting lectures. Last night two sweet friends stayed at my place, we baked cupcake .... did girls-talk continuously .... ordered pizza at 01.00 am. For me a pajamas party with my best girls and good food is always great, bring bunches of joyful effects. Too bad my almost perfect weekend was a bit ruined, well .... long story short .... I should learn to have more patience.
Have a nice last week in October!

ps : 2010 flies seriously too fast, but at least I've painted a 2011 calendar.

what irritates you?

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Sudirman Jakarta 04.30 am


I've been neglecting the blog lately .... been rather busy with real life here : family, friends and good food. The amount of food I stuffed into my stomach are ridiculously plenty. Last sunday I even ate almost everything .... meatball soup ..... prawn ..... sushi ..... sweet banana raisin pizza .... dimsum ..... frozen yoghurt ..... oh nein, bad conscience!

In less than one week I'm gonna be back to reality. At first I was kinda sad leaving my loved ones (again) ..... but everyone has their own activities here ..... and it's kinda no fun that I ended up only daydreaming during the day. I miss having my own activities .... and yes, I miss the city too ..... and the thing is, I know exactly that I have a big task to accomplish there ..... so here it goes again, the little hamster is ready for sprinting in the wheel again!

Another reason I can't wait to be back is : too many Blackberry and Blackberry users here irritates me. Call me conservative .... but I'm a normal person .... I live my normal life and I don't need a silly pricey thing to do it. Live your life instead of ping your life. I miss the place where the people didn't stare and typing on their so called smart phone every a couple minutes ..... where the people are just normal, they didn't do unnecessary chit chat endlessly .... nor checking emails when they're not even in the workplace. Yup, I miss Germany and all the regularity ..... where every single thing has an order, which make sense.


Black pepper Beef

Red Mango frozen Yoghurt

The young Doctors


ps. current priorities : 1.Study hard(core) 2.Saving up (harder) for winter break

deal with it

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the faces I knew, with strange sentience
the places I knew, with different atmosphere
fortunately a hug feels exactly the same as ever
yet things couldn't be better and weirder than this

Eet by Regina Spektor

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it's like forgetting the words to your favorite song

you can't believe it, you were always singing along
it was so easy and the words so sweet
you can't remember, you try to feel the beat

you spent half of your life trying to fall behind
you're using your headphones to drown out your mind
it was so easy, and the words so sweet, you can't remember
you try to move your feet


7 random facts

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tagged by Ms. Principia. Shall we start the list?
1. when I was in junior high, 33.3% of my clothes are pink and 33.3% are blue
2. bang is my life saver, since my forehead is too big
3. when I'm mad you better stay away from me
4. I think, Bugatti is a cockroach with machine
5. I splurge on hair treatment products lately
6. I sleep with 3 blankets on winter
7. big city intimidates me

ms. anita, ms. astrid, ms. cynthia, ms. reytia, ms. chentya and ms. sabrina
... will you play along? Thanks!

spring is around and it's brutally beautiful

lunch date

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lunch date on Sunday will be very okay
via designtoshare

i pink you

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I feel like transforming my bedroom from crisp white to baby pink, but I actually live in a shared apartment for boys - so it's NOT possible baby (why I live here again? cheap rent) This weekend I'll just rest at home ........ or not ...... maybe I'll take a walk and hunt for a poster or two........ or not, I forgot I have an appointment to make an architecture model ...... ugh. Until then.

January

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if i made random postings like this, means that so many things buzzing in my head ....... my mind is occupied with many thoughts ........ i need a shoulder to cry on someone to talk to.

meanwhile : I feed my hair with tons of hair cream

colored my nails with these cuties .....

voila, the result.....


put more things on the wall

and realized how 'plain and empty' this winter could be.

15

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this message is for you

remember this place?
never mind
just need to tell that i'm lost
i'm lost and i'm scared

1st week in S

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report from my first week in Stuttgart :
The weather is cold, hmm yaa what do u expect Dira
Staying at (my friend) house and looking for my own room
I try my best not to miss everyone back home but kinda failed
I met my previous landlord - whom very kind
here I am, back in Germany ..... pursuing ...... mmm pursuing my dream?
hope this cold country will treat me just fine, bismillahirrahmanirrahim ....

photos above are some leftover from Bali trip (May 09)
01:48 am .... Donny and I are watching infotainment on mivo.tv right now.

meracau

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pengen deh bawa dekorasi kamar ke Stuttgart .....
pengen juga masukin sepatu2 kesayangan ke koper ......
pengen juga rasanya maksa minta si mas pacar nyusul kesana .....
banyak maunya ya?


undergraduate trip

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Photos from day-trip to Heidelberg with friends. By coincidence I took picture of so many red things. You can see my cheek are getting more chubby, huh.



We work on this competition in the office -- an urban mixed-use project...... and finally I stay longer drawing in my desk, until around 18.30 on normal day and until 16.00 on Friday. Wish I could say yes when My Bos asked me to prolong my internship, but I couldn't. Is this what people called dilemma? Hhhh.

So I'm thinking about my next step lately. I need to graduate soon (laporan KP!!!) ....... I need C1 preparation course or DSH preparation course....... and I need pre or past graduation trip haha. Let's see...... Bali or Lombok will be great, my skin need tons of sunshine.......... Singapore will be perfect since I crave to visit Janna and Firhan.........and Mecca, hmm I want my holy trip with my family. other idea? and oh anyone please drag me to Karimun Jawa.......